Down 20 Pounds!

So it has been kind of a crazy, full week. I have missed being able to update you all on my progress. So my most exciting news is that yesterday I weighed in @ 286lbs . . . yep, that would mean I have lost so far a total of twenty pounds. I am super ecstatic with these quick results being that it has only been three and a half weeks since I started.

Now for the sobering moment . . . I CAN'T TELL! I am realizing more and more how big 306 pounds really was. I know, I carried it around for a while, I worked with it, I slept with it, I walked with it, I looked at it in the mirror, I dressed it, I even poked fun at it . . . But I don't think I ever really accepted it. You know the kids that play hide and seek . . . but stand in the middle of the room only covering their own eyes thinking If I can't see them then they must not be able to see me! That would be me. If I dressed my body really cute then maybe I was not really 306 . . . or at least I didn't think I looked it. I would do the makeup, hair, nails all in hopes to hide the truth. The saddest reality I am coming to know is that weight does not hide nor does what has created the weight in the first place. Sure, parts of my face may look a bit smaller, my pants may be a tiny bit saggier . . . but for the most part my now 286 pound body is the same. I realize that to loose 20 pounds is a big deal, and I realized today how much further I have to go. Not discouraging . . . just sobering!

The VERY unsexy truth is that the 20 pounds I have lost I have traded for, awful breath even after brushing my teeth 8 times a day! I have become gassier then you want to know about and my hormones have gone awack (beware all slow drivers on the road) I have had to set up a standing apology with my very patient and very loving boyfriend. My face is more broken out then EVER before and my hair is brittle, dry and dare I say thinning!

Many people have asked me if I have anything visual to encourage me. I do! I made a huge chart on a poster board of the progress of my weight loss. Every time I weigh in I add a corresponding dot. Right now the graph is plummeting. It sits next to the TV in the living room, serving as a constant reminder of the goals I have set for myself. I find myself smiling every time I look at it because I feel as though I am achieving success.

Well I think that is all for now . . . I will write more soon!

Oh wait . . . I have to add a little homage to the Magic Bullet Blender my friend Kim gave me. Well you see I could not have achieved the type of success I have achieved thus far if it were not for the Magic Bullet Blender. That little portable blender was awesome and went everywhere with me . . . until Thursday night. It was as ordinary a night as any other. I was at work and it was time to blend a shake. I put everything together and turned on the blender. Not a moment later I noticed a puff of smoke come from the back of the blender so I hastily turned it off . . . not soon enough. My Magic Bullet Blender is now dead, but I will forever be grateful for the help it gave me. Yesterday Jeff bought me two more portable blenders . . . one for work and one for home. How's that for support!!!